Stark Cacophony

Part A (Brief description of chief complaint):

Migraine with aura is a type of migraine headache characterized by the presence of sensory disturbances, known as an “aura,” preceding or accompanying the headache. The aura typically involves temporary, reversible visual, sensory, or language disturbances that develop gradually over several minutes and usually last for less than an hour.

Part B (Poem):

My eyes open to stark cacophony

Sharpened colors,

Cutting me with their keen vibrancy

Jagged sounds,

As if hitched breaths

Hiding from nearby pursuit

I blink rapidly

Trying to find my place;

A lone straggler

Moored on a lost island

A cloud passes

Rolling past brief farewells

Frosted pearls

Flooding into a conductor’s crescendo

A neighbor glances

Assuming narcissistic attention

Brief windows opening

Caught under heavy fantasy

A babe wails

Fighting confusion with volume

A solo instrument

Caught between fractured arpeggio

I try to stay afloat

flailing with a fool’s futility

Assuming survival

to be adequate reprieve

These blurred lines adjust

as grief tends to do

Moving from pounding beats

unto dull aches

Dragging marionette limbs

Into rehearsed movement

The moment passes

Or perhaps I tell myself it does

Swaying to faint decrescendo

Distraction replacing reality

An easy pivot,

One I have grown accustomed to

Both eyes close once more

Doorways bleeding light

from what they hide behind;

A hopeful illumination

A slight knocking,

as if not to startle beauty awake

I relish my brief ignorance

Into the dread of inevitable beginning

as if sensing a conductor’s crescendo

Building up into a familiar movement

Slowly,

Towards stark cacophony